An end to it all...

Well, I was preparing to write little more for the KHR fandom, but…as it turns out, I changed my mind. I will announce this now:

I WILL NOT BE WRITING KHR FANFICS ANYMORE. I apologize for the inconvenience, everyone, but...I want to tell you all that I am tired, exhausted, and broken from all the overwork with my college and adding writing to this site. It is becoming a chore to write for this fandom, especially since I have been getting reviews like this:

"It's a great story and I'm only disapointed in 3 things.
1- The lack of action scenes.
2- The fact that Tsuna STILL likes Kyoko cause I mean seriously why does he even like the girl aniway.
3- THE FACT THAT SO MUCH TIME AS PASSED WITHOUT YOU UPDATING THIS! WHAT'S KEEPING YOU SO LONG AND DON'T THAT IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE BUSY WHIT OTHER FANFICTIONS BECAUSE IF THAT'S THE REASON THAN ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS THAT YOU SHOULD FINISH A STORY BEFORE MOVING ON TO ANOTHER ONE!"

So, first off, I will answer these three in the following order:

1) Action scenes show up only when they are necessary. Keep in mind that Haru cannot even FIGHT right now, and she can’t even block a hit from someone like Yamamoto or Gokudera, much less Hibari or any opponent that will show up. And, BELIEVE ME, the opponents that I did have in mind for this at the time were pretty much stronger and smarter than Hibari. Tsuna fighting might be nice, yes...but keep in mind that Haru needs to do something right in order to be more active in the story.

2) Tsuna likes Kyoko. This is a canon fact. What is also implied is that he absolutely believes in the idea that Kyoko is a "perfect, pure, and innocent" girl who will NEVER do anything wrong, a typical idea for a boy in the Japanese society that IS wrong. Unfortunately he refuses to acknowledge this and even stubbornly argues and even fights against it. It will take a MAJOR TURNAROUND PROOF (nothing less than Kyoko helping the bad guys willingly) that Kyoko is not a great person to make him realize this, and there ARE ways to do this. Unfortunately, NOW that you decide to write me this, I refuse to show you how this happens.

3) I am a Biomedical Engineer Major in my 3rd year in college. This means I have at least 3 to 4 classes that are 5 units each, not including the labs that take hours to work on. Each unit takes 2-3 hours per week to finish. What’s worse? I had 3 tests ever since I last wrote the 7th chapter, including 2 finals from the last semester. If you can do all of that AND write 1 chapter per week easily, then talk to me.

I don’t want to give in to this sort of idiot. She’s a brat, an imbecile, and possibly a spoiled, impatient moron who can’t even appreciate that I am even writing this work. She obviously doesn’t get the reason why I write these works: I want to spend some time on my writing skills, and she obviously think she is entitled to a 15-page-chapter every week.

Thus, good riddance. I used to feel guilty about this fandom, but now? I just hate it. I don’t hate my friends in there, but I do hate getting harassed so often.

Now? I'm thinking of destroying this account and leaving.

Update on Under the Endless Sky.

I have a few things to say for Under the Endless Sky. Namely:

1. I must tell you all that it's a mainly Action/Adventure/General fic themed on growing up and growing into the problem of having an inheritance in the Italian Cosa Nostra mafia. TsuHaru is secondary, and it will only be subtle and in Part III. If any of you want to read TsuHaru, please read An Unusual Request instead.

2. It's also going to be full Seinen-level in regards to material. Not Shounen, because that is for little boys. Seinen is for full-grown men, and that means a lot of really dark themes: references to drug use, sexuality and loads of violence and brutality and shades-of-grey-morality.

3. Plot and Character development and what the mafia really is about and consequences are going to be paramount. Nothing fairy-tale like in here.

4. The flames are made from bioexperiments done on humans in the late Medieval to early Renaissance era by mafioso and people who were at the intellectual field in medicine.

5. Every major character will have a chance to shine. That includes Sasagawa Kyoko, because we all know how the KHR fans coddle her to make her into this "pure, beautiful and perfect" girl who can't do anything wrong...even though she has no ability to do anything worth squat yet. Instead of that, I'm going to force her to grow up and make her stronger and flawed, like how she SHOULD be.

6. The main character, Tsuna, is going to change drastically over time into a very dark, calculating and manipulative guy. That means he will be capable of wielding the mafioso name and becomes who knows how to kill and slaughter innocents without caring much. If any of you don't like that, please don't read any further.

That is all. If any of you have any concerns, please tell me via email.

Writing Update 12/22/2011 6:00 PM

In the end, it's always the society that is to blame for the issues that individuals have when they realize they are "too special" for people to accept.

But anyways, I'm going to have to state a few things here. I know that this might seem a bit sudden, but...I'm going to make a few matters apparent in the time that I have, just to not fool my readers of my intentions. This ways, not only will there be less unhappy readers, but I will make sure that the writing I can place out will be well-thought-out and not so weakly done.

1) Under the Endless Sky will be a dark Seinen Deconstruction of the following themes: Mafioso Heroism, Purity and the Ideal Status Quo. Not only will there be a lot of destruction of the ideas that Tsuna is a hero, but purity of girls will be nonexistent in here, mainly because there is no such real thing as purity. There is naivete and innocence, but that exists only when you are a child. And as for the status quo...it's all a perspective flaw. This fanfic is mainly for people to see that it is to force people to THINK, not just admire the TsuHaru pairing. Much of the fanfic will be quite dark and Puella Magi Madoka Magica/Heaven's Feel-like so that the TsuHaru will not come out of nowhere. All pairings come in from logical, believable progress that is gradual, and people will see this.

2) Helene wil be a major deconstruction of the purity myth of girls, especially Kyoko. Not only will I make this one a Tragedy, but it will be a complete destruction of the Tsuna/Kyoko pairing, mainly because it will let my readers see just how bad that pairing can make the world in ways of its irrationality. Not that TsuHaru is the absolute rationale, but...the thing is, Kyoko expects Tsuna to be a perfect Superman hero, and she has no will or intention to take those rose-colored lenses off, so she will be so disappointed with everything, including herself, that she would become self-destructive.

3) Queen of the Underworld is a sister fanfic on Haru's take on Helene. It will also be the only fanfic I will write with an OC/canon character fanfic in the KHRverse, mainly because I think that there are plenty of smart people out in the world in KHR, and that there is a major chance of one of them stealing Haru away from the Vongola family when he notices just how desolate and ignored Haru is. Chances are, he can easily also use Haru for information and all sorts of abilities so that she would be loyal to him instead, mainly because the fact remains that the Vongola family, Tsuna especially, don't care about Haru much. From here, I can see Haru become very dark and manipulative and damn terrifying and...not to mention, extremely furious and full of hatred.

Other than that, I have other updates, but those are for later...and I can't write all of them in here yet. Mainly because I can't memorize them all at once. X.X Damn it all...

Progress: Chapter 7 almost halfway done!

So, yeah…the title says it all. That and…I am in need of some feedback on the material in regards to what the development of the characters should be like, primarily Yamamoto, Gokudera, Ryohei, and Chrome.

Ryohei and Yamamoto, I think, are especially tricky, since they haven’t completely found out about the entire mafia situation in regards to being grounded in reality as of yet. Tsuna, I think, will also be a pain, because I am trying to develop him from an adolescent boy into a full-grown man, and it is difficult due to the fact that I’m not a guy and that I do not always understand how men think. –is very ignorant–

Haru, as far as I can tell, is also a challenge. Most fanfic writers in KHR either make her godly (another term for Mary Sueish, which is really bad), or they make her absolutely silly without any form of intelligence whatsoever (even many good ones).

However, I see Haru as being capable of growing extraordinarily well without becoming too godly or anything. What’s more, I have heard from a few people who told me that the girl should not have a flame, mostly because it would automatically make her a godly character and ruin her development, and I have to slightly disagree, even if that’s me. If the flame is something that she cannot use without very serious, dire consequences, then it would at least force her into a bit of responsibility in regards to power. What’s more, I’m planning on having Haru be almost completely an operational (read: military mastermind) and sniper (top ace in weapons), since her flame will actually cause trouble for the group and bring a lot of enemies, both inside the Vongola and outside, if she does show her flame to anyone who will talk.

That said, I don’t completely know how I am going to take the pairings into this fanfic, but I will as promised. I admit, I started out with the idea of creating an epic action/adventure story with TsuHaru in it, and then 1896 somehow followed and everything came into it automatically. Sometimes, I wish I could stop coming up with so many ideas in one fic. -sigh-

So, um…feel free to tell me what you think, guys, because I truly wish for this work to work well, and I don’t want it to end up like certain other works (for instance, the Flames and Family series), all fanservice at the end and not much making sense. I want to make the ending with impact, something that will throw the reader off balance in its intensity.